I'm back...with the curse.......not again...God please help me!!

It's been a while that i didnt start to post..but now i'm back but with the curse following me....today is a sleepless nite for me...haven't sleep for whole day today and went for the exam....there not may things could cause me like that when i said its sleepless night means that something terrible thing had happen to me....

Well...i'm not sure whether i can share in here or not but it won't be too details i guess..cause i don't know how the person would react.But something i got to admit that something just went out of my control sometimes.Eventhough i had tried my best for giving you trust in me, but i just don know why sometimes it went out of my control and mess up all the time.I really sad this recently,because this is not the first time,and it is hard for me to bring the trust back to you.and i don know what can i do for you to be back in trust with me.I really wan to scream at the top of the hill sometimes.something like "I don wan to be like this!! I just wan to be like normal!! Like the life that we going on right now!!! WHY!!!! Why this happen to me all the time!!!!" I really wan to scream out like this when i go to the top of the hill. I really feel so clueless and don know what to do to back into normal. I hope God can help me and comfort my sorrow soul right now.
This is the photo i took at the top of the hill that i went to..


The trust that i building up for...had messed up once again....and its like the building of trust had been collapsed...i don know when i can build this up and let you trust in me again....I really don wan this to be happen...in this time...where both of us need courage and support to face our exam...to tell you guys the truth that i really not in the mood on facing my exam right now......i feel so empty.....I pray that Lord will give me a clue and deliver from evil and keep me out of sinning.....I pray that Lord will once again cherish and repair the crack of our relationship.......

I'm sorry that i always posting this sad posts on my very own blog...but i think this blog had become the place where i can release all my emotions and sad feelings which i hide from everyone.....i also hope that next post of mine will be a happy post to share with you guys....

The last thing i want to say to the person is:"Please forgive me and give me one more chance to trust me,i know that you can't fully trust me by now,but i jus want to tell you that i really regret and i will correct it and i won't dissapoint you and make you sad this time.I will do anything i can and i won't hide anything from you anymore....please give me one more chance to trust me."


Everyone please study hard for the exam....especially you.....^^

Cheer up my fren,trust God(MARIAH CAREY=I WISH YOU WELL)

Its already half past two now...this week is kinda suprise that my parents had suddenly come to visit me and my bro...i hav to admit it i had a good time with them and jus wan them to trust me that i will be good and not to let them worry bout me...

This lately many fren's around me had their own problems,just hope to cheer up you guys and overcome our problems and have faith in God.I also had my own problems to correct and overcome.Many things had been troubles me a lot this lately but i just hope this will be end fast and hope that its God's Will.Hope God can grant me what i want that i prayed for so long.i just hope that this sem will end it quick and every problem will be solved or wishes that'll be granted.

Been back to listen english songs now,some of the songs are really nice,a movie that with nice songs and nice actions is STEP UP 2.really nice movies with cool dancing moves and music.

Here's few songs that i recommend:
Cassie-Is it you
Mariah Carey-Byebye
Trey Songz-Can't help but wait

If you guys searching for nice songs,i can recommend u some but not sure whether u like it or not...

CHEER UP AND STUDY HARD!!!

~我愿意付出一切 去换一个时光机~

Sorry bout not always posting..but i was kinda lazy to edit my profile and put photos in due to my line is slow and my laziness...

But i gotta admit and share with u guys is tis week of mine is very very happy...but time passes fast..never been happy like this tis lately...coz seldom go out to play already....and i just hope the time will stop at a particular moment sometimes and hope that i can go back into that time...i can't really describe how desparate I am right now...but if i really can do it..i'll do it whatever it takes...
But i also know that bygones are bygones...and i can't really always look at the back...but i'm trying my best to keep the moment and i hope that i can hav that certain moment again sometimes...i jus hope that i wont be messing things up all the times...jus feel that i got some kind of curse...when i had a good time...it won't last long and maybe last for a day then the second day it'll be mess up again...not sure if tis playfulness of mine makes me like tis..I'm reli hate myself to be like tis and i really feel sorry bout this...Can't really talk much right now due to my desparation and sad i guess...

Anyway...hope u guys always hav a peace and happy life^^

~I have a confession to make~ ~That I'm a fool~

Firstly i really need to say sorry to you guys coz i feel that i didnt commit into tis blog..but i'll promise that i make sure to keep posted everytime i free....all i can say tat is tis few days is evry fun for me...but after the funs had passed..i'll feel the moment of being lonely...

But something i need to confess now is I'M NOT ANTI-JAY!!!

The story is very complicated...When Jay made his debut i've been supporting him...but after his fourth album i guess...when he sing some language that i don know....I've don like him anymore...but due to some reasons...I'll get to hear his newest album now which is "I'm Busy" in chinese...haha....some of the songs is quite nice...so when i think back...I'm not ANTI him alright?coz i still know how to sing his songs and his lyrics had been carved in my brains long ago...and i really regret that i say this 3 words yesterday...coz i didn't think carefully...I had to confess that I'm lieing or maybe act too rushly...hope u guys can forgive me...

Its good to make a confession here..haha...hope u guys understand...once more i declare...I'M NOT ANTI JAY!!I'm do agree that some of his songs are good...some songs that i understand and can hear what he sings...hehe....but my fav artist is still Jordan Chan..^^

~I had a bad day~I"m takin one down jus turn it around!

well...today my day is kinda sux...becoz of my face getting allergic and even doctor don know what happens...jus say allergic..feels like don wan to meet anyone coz of my face is swollen and reddy...makes me feel like i'm a big red BABOON!!

well...it started out at night...when i half way of my meeting wif uncle chow...then suddenly my face become itchy and hurts..something like burning...but i hope tat i can recover soon...and hope tat everyone of u will pray for me la...tis recently many people around me had fall sick...jus pray to that Lord will take care everyone of us...

today exam in the morning..and i jus hav a 2 hours sleep for today...even fall asleep jus now when i watch tv...reli tiring...reli thanks for putting the effort for teaching me tat night...for my EXTREMIST family...

all of u guys add oil a...study hard everyone...including u...u know who i'm talking bout^^

My very first blog

Hi ya..everyone..tis is the very first time i write a blog..from what i seen everyone of my frens seems like treating a blog is the place for someone to express their feelings and seek for support or advice..so for me..i treat tis like a diary of mine...but i hope tat u guys will understand my feelings and giv me some advice too...i reli not feeling well this few days...and its a very long and suffer experience for me...I'll write it as soon as possible when i got the time to write it...see ya everyone..thanks for viewing...